Yes, I'm pregnant.
12 weeks along.
Being a woman of a certain shape, that of a pear, a delicious round pear that would probably taste so good braised in a red wine reduction or caramelized and set over a custard or in a tart; announcing to people in person that you are pregnant, their eyes go directly to your stomach, as if you are due in a matter of weeks.
Then as you notice their eyes refocus on your face, you politely say, "Oh, I'm only X weeks along."
Back in November, I decided I was ready to have another baby. I thought I would get pregnant as fast as I did with my first and that wasn't the case. Granted, it's still a blessing to want to be pregnant and then get pregnant because I have so many friends that have tried and couldn't. Every month I thought I was pregnant, I was let down. I decided that maybe my body was not healthy enough to be pregnant. I decided to switch up some eating habits and since I cook a lot at home, I could control my ingredients and my intake (sometimes). I did my best to not think about getting pregnant, being pregnant and not being upset if I wasn't pregnant. The key was to not think about it. If it happens, it happens. I tend to over think...a lot.
I found out on June 9th that I was carrying a second child. My first thought was, "Holy crap."
I've had three appointments and labs done. This last appointment was a bit of a bombshell.
I am pre-diabetic....possibly.
My doctor recommended that I start on a diabetic diet but to make sure I get 2200 healthy calories a day and 8 glasses of water. 2200 calories. That's a lot.
I'll have to admit once I found out I was with child I threw caution to the wind and heard Gramma's voice in my head, "Whatever baby wants, baby will get." I did get morning sickness but also craved a certain flame grilled burger from a fast food chain, rhymes with hopper. But now I had to think about consequences of being unhealthy. I'm going to be re-tested in 4 months, hopefully with a better result otherwise it's medication and/or insulin. I don't like pills and I sure as hell don't want to stab myself everyday. So I made a decision to do better.
We're lucky in the fact that if we need information on anything, the internet provides. Right when I got home from my appointment I searched and searched. Today when I went grocery shopping I told myself, "Buying healthier options will be pricey but your health and baby's health and the rest of your family's health is very much worth it. Plus we'll save from eating out."
I did fine with buying produce but things can be tricky with "whole grains" or things marked as such. I went down my pasta aisle and saw a very fit woman looking at pasta. She was holding a whole grain box of penne and reading the label. She was also wearing work out clothes. I was unsure of what to buy and being the outgoing person that I am I asked her, "What are you looking for in a healthy pasta?" This woman was amazing. She talked about healthy carbs, whole grains, enriched flour, duram wheat flour, servings, pairings, compared regular pasta with whole grain pasta, sugars, folic acid - this woman knew her stuff and I was so glad asked. I wish I would have made a better effort and said with all dorkiness, "Do you want to be my friend?"
As we parted ways down different aisles of the store, I felt more confident in my choices I was making and reassured that I can do without all of the foods I've loved for a long time. I can alter my recipes to be healthier and still have it be satisfying. And as an added bonus, it turned out that I saved $30 on my grocery bill.
People are usually kind to pregnant women and I appreciate it and yet I know that as I get more shapely with this baby, people will feel so moved as to touch my stomach, forgetting that touching anyone without invitation is weird and not welcome. Just to let you know, it's weird and not welcome. Unless you're my immediate family, they're "touchy" people.